Welcome 2012

Starting off 2012 with a bang thanks to my dearest one and only lover.... Shasha Shukor.... And oh ya... Steve Job.... RIP

Suprise, suprise

Since I reactivate my old facebook account, I see a lot of changes around me. Among my friends, working colleague and sometime unexpected people. Before that let me quote a verse from the Holy Quran and a Hadith or the saying of our Beloved Rasul before we proceed.

Hadith from sahih Bukhari


Volume 7, Book 63, Number 188:
Narrated 'Aisha:
Allah's Apostle gave us the option (to remain with him or to be divorced) and we selected Allah and His Apostle . So, giving us that option was not regarded as divorce.





O ye who believe! Ye are forbidden to inherit women against their will. Nor should ye treat them with harshness, that ye may Take away part of the dower ye have given them,-except where they have been guilty of open lewdness; on the contrary live with them on a footing of kindness and equity. If ye take a dislike to them it may be that ye dislike a thing, and Allah brings about through it a great deal of good. (4:19)


Yess, Divorce. I have seen more than once a family institution crumbled to the ground. I have encounter more than 1 couple around me facing a troubled marriage. And most of them are below 30 years old. Why is this rampant in our society? Is it because of the lacking of education in marriage prior to the wedding ceremony? Or maybe just because Marriage has been regarded as trend rather than ibadah? Or it is merely for sexual pleasures? The Rasul had said in his Hadith as below that regards the Holiness or Barakah of Marriage:

Hadith - Sahih Bukhari, Volume 7, Book 62, Number 4, Narrated 'Abdullah 

We were with the Prophet while we were young and had no wealth whatever. So Allah's Apostle said, "O young people! Whoever among you can marry, should marry, because it helps him lower his gaze and guard his modesty (i.e. his private parts from committing illegal sexual intercourse etc.), and whoever is not able to marry, should fast, as fasting diminishes his sexual power."

Well this is all I can write for now... I'll do more research and come back with a very complete elaboration

I am back

I am back after so many months of silence. There's a lot in my mind. This has been blocking me from writing. Yes I decide to write again after so many months.

Everything is in a jumble for quite sometime. My life goes up and down, and going down was the easiest part. Going up again was a challenge. Yes, all this had made me a stronger person. no doubt. I will try to write longer for this entry and as in my lecturer's terminology.... to "vomit" on the keyboard. Where do I start....

Politics
A lot had happen since the overly ( is this how you spell the word?) Bersih 2.0 for a free and fair election. The action of the authority, the over acting of opposition leaders, the ignorance of some government supporters and the posers on twitter and facebook politician wannabees... add colors to the political arena... but I am not to comment further as I am getting fed up with this politics. I've been in politics since the 98/99 Reformasi years and how I see hypocrisy stands paramount beyond what people belief and what they preach.. yeah.. Politician can say the dumbest things... So I guess I'm just gonna blog more on book reviews and historical fact however boring it may be...

Social Networkings
I have reactivated my old facebook account solely for the purpose of networking and connecting with my peers,,, currently trying to adapt twitter into my life but I guess I am either too late or too out of the league for that. I always felt too boring to be on twitter and I guess no one even bother to read my tweets... they're just damn boring anyway. Now I am trying to join forums and wanted to be a trainspotter... before its too late....I am just gonna try and do what I belief as different from others, be it if there is anyone going to support me or not..Damn even now I have already a plan for that


Spiritual
I am trying to get back to Islam as whole.. Looking at all the challenges God had given me, I felt it is a blessing in disguise.. With the threat against my beloved Religion and the torment that my beloved Rasul is facing I guess I should play more part in defending this religion of mine even if I have to die doing it

Personal
Yes, this is the last part of my ramblings. It is so hard to get through someone else's past. I wanted an honest relationship. I guess this is my best and true part of Ramadhan so far.. no wastage of food for breakfast and then just had to really understand the meaning of sawm... fasting in arab.. Not trying to compare I am trying to be honest to myself. I turned 30 this year and what did I achieve..nothing I guess.. but come to think of it, I wanna throw away my low self esteem but I am unable to do so and most of the time I feel stupid. The only thing that holds me together is the faith that I still have an Al- Rahman and Al-Rahim above to protect me. Now, everytime I felt a stinging pain about anything I can only cry and talk to Him as He is the Almighty, All Powerful and All Hearing, it is just a matter of time before His ultimate help will come and release me from this pain its either in this world or the hereafter..

Career
Nahh... I'll just skip this.. daily rambling of my work place available elsewhere at my mobile blog

Happy monday

Have you ever felt at times you are not in Malaysia? Have you ever felt that you are being oppressed by a group of minorities who think they are better than others? Yes, welcome to my world people

Live was never a smooth ride... I have been played over and over again by the same idiots whom i try to respect and at the same time was played down. Now I see around me the creepers are going in to control the country. And I always believe that they are not that brilliant. and yeah..you guys do live on lies and deception

16 April-The day that will shook Sarawak

I just came back from a DAP rally in Stutong, a predominantly Chinese area. Estimated around 30,000 people were there and mostly youngsters. I have been to a PKR rally in Bandar Baru Semariang, an estimated 5,000 to 10,000 people were there.

This is the scenario that was never seen in Sarawak. People were clamouring to listen to all the Pakatan Rakyat's leaders speech. Sarawak has always been an asset to the Federal BN and whenever an election in Sarawak, the almost cynical comment that I will receive is that, "tutup mata pun orang akan pangkah BN". This will not repeat itself from what I have witnessed for the past days.

The younger Sarawakians are aware that they need to change. And what attract them more than PKR and DAP. I do not see PAS as a crowd puller for this election and PKR is using itself by branding it to be more Youth Friendly. I see all sort of youngsters supporting them from mat rempit to young professionals. It seems that they are not too worried of having a Semenanjung based party to come and dictate what is the best for us Sarawakian.

The main issue here is the current Chief Ministers bores us to the maximum. He has been in power since 1981 and he do forget that most of the leader his age has either died or went into self confinement or vanish into thin air. The younger generation of Sarawkians wanted a hip Chief Minister to promote betterment of the society. But no.that was never meant to happen. So, I assume the people of Sarawak will translate that into a vote.

ARMAND AZHA SUARA ANAK MUDA: HEY YOU NAMEWEE JGN KACAU TAU

ARMAND AZHA SUARA ANAK MUDA: HEY YOU NAMEWEE JGN KACAU TAU

He made a decision to quit the Ultra Nationalist Malay Rights Group PERKASA. Let us all wish this charismatic leader a best wish of luck and not to stop contributing to the better understanding of Malay rights and custom and to promote better understanding between Malays and Non Malays

Sometimes I Ponder

Today  I started early.. I went to this interview at the office. Oh ya,, I am suppose to be on off but I am so excited about this one opportunity I decide to just attend.. And ya,,, Insya Allah, all should go well :)


I needed this break. I have been going through hell for the past months. I don't really get it if anyone were not to understand me. I am just trying to survive in a very harsh and alien world. Mind you I am a "foreigner" in my own country. I have been given promises after promises. Especially those with sugar coatings. Here is my story


It all started when there was this one issue going on at the workplace, very near to the bonus payout for my company. There was a breach in procedure of unbarring staff benefit lines (yes this is one of the not so many perks left). Two of us from my unit were caught breaching this rules. And down the drain all my annual effort and bonus went. We end up having a warning letter each worth of a yearly toil of blood, sweat and tears.


Then both of us tried to pick what left of ourselves back. We tried to be the best but the suffering only ended after 6 months. We were some what traumatised and still bear that scar till today. Then somewhere along the way this friend of mine decided to transfer. That was not the end but a beginning....


Then some jokers decide that we some distant south asian country can do miracles at a minimal cost... eureka... then my unit was shrunk....During that time I stopped receiving my part time salary..then from there all hell break lose.


That was only a small part of it.. I am heartless now. Trying to live in an old world full of young people. At 30 I am nothing to be proud off. I am now piss broke, chewing more than I could swallow and trying my best, crawling just to continue another day. I am very tired. Gone were the days when I eat only home cooked food. My house is in a mess and no one understand. I think it is better off for me to stay all alone, or how?


I always belief that no matter what comes to you, God do have a mysterious way to show its love to us. I always think that He will always be kind hearted. It's just that sometimes I will cry and complaint only to Him. Why am I in such a mess? Only He alone knows. Sometime alone at night I wake up and cries.,.. I had passed the level where I am angry. I am now at a stage of pitying myself. He will always be the Almighty holder of solutions