I am back

I am back after so many months of silence. There's a lot in my mind. This has been blocking me from writing. Yes I decide to write again after so many months.

Everything is in a jumble for quite sometime. My life goes up and down, and going down was the easiest part. Going up again was a challenge. Yes, all this had made me a stronger person. no doubt. I will try to write longer for this entry and as in my lecturer's terminology.... to "vomit" on the keyboard. Where do I start....

Politics
A lot had happen since the overly ( is this how you spell the word?) Bersih 2.0 for a free and fair election. The action of the authority, the over acting of opposition leaders, the ignorance of some government supporters and the posers on twitter and facebook politician wannabees... add colors to the political arena... but I am not to comment further as I am getting fed up with this politics. I've been in politics since the 98/99 Reformasi years and how I see hypocrisy stands paramount beyond what people belief and what they preach.. yeah.. Politician can say the dumbest things... So I guess I'm just gonna blog more on book reviews and historical fact however boring it may be...

Social Networkings
I have reactivated my old facebook account solely for the purpose of networking and connecting with my peers,,, currently trying to adapt twitter into my life but I guess I am either too late or too out of the league for that. I always felt too boring to be on twitter and I guess no one even bother to read my tweets... they're just damn boring anyway. Now I am trying to join forums and wanted to be a trainspotter... before its too late....I am just gonna try and do what I belief as different from others, be it if there is anyone going to support me or not..Damn even now I have already a plan for that


Spiritual
I am trying to get back to Islam as whole.. Looking at all the challenges God had given me, I felt it is a blessing in disguise.. With the threat against my beloved Religion and the torment that my beloved Rasul is facing I guess I should play more part in defending this religion of mine even if I have to die doing it

Personal
Yes, this is the last part of my ramblings. It is so hard to get through someone else's past. I wanted an honest relationship. I guess this is my best and true part of Ramadhan so far.. no wastage of food for breakfast and then just had to really understand the meaning of sawm... fasting in arab.. Not trying to compare I am trying to be honest to myself. I turned 30 this year and what did I achieve..nothing I guess.. but come to think of it, I wanna throw away my low self esteem but I am unable to do so and most of the time I feel stupid. The only thing that holds me together is the faith that I still have an Al- Rahman and Al-Rahim above to protect me. Now, everytime I felt a stinging pain about anything I can only cry and talk to Him as He is the Almighty, All Powerful and All Hearing, it is just a matter of time before His ultimate help will come and release me from this pain its either in this world or the hereafter..

Career
Nahh... I'll just skip this.. daily rambling of my work place available elsewhere at my mobile blog