Hrm.. the system is currently down at the office. As if it tries to comprehend what I feel inside, the whole office system is down. So I decide to write something.
I feel very weird.. I have a feeling that I am facing a brick wall.. with so much trouble and with virtually no way out. It has been always been like this for the past years. Since last year it all started. I think there is a predictive pattern for all my sufferings as it will start from October and drag on till somewhere around May. I always held on to this one thin string of faith that God must have something up his sleeve.. its just that I don't know for how long I can stand to this
Yes, I must be thankful that there are others who suffer more than me. There are people who does not have a job, lost limbs and stuff. But I sometime wonder, what did I do to deserve this. I look around and everyone seems very happy with what they do.
I try my best to make everyone happy even with the implication that I will hurt myself somewhere along the way. I sometime cry when I think about what happen to me.
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